i'm a blog

im in a dodgey sad mood and have no way of going anywhere
so im writing this instead.

so my weekend so far,

friday was over all pretty good :)
hannah and i made our way into the city, got some robotussin
went to the torrens (ewwwwy) to drink it
where we located some people, with which we went to mansons
whilst there hannah and i started to trip out
we had two jugs of Pina Coladas ;DD yum
then on our way to the apartment we stopped off at the northern light
thats was pretty good.
we went to the apartment, gahh some fucked up weird fight happend
then that all was over.
hahaha the fish at the apartment were smoked (literally)

after a little while longer people started to get some zzz's
at which time i managed to have various items thrown at me
such as shoes, tomato sauce container and even an inside washing line (wtf haha)
i also managed to lose items of clothes around the apartment well actually they were hidden from me haha -_-

in turn this made me rather late

from there my weekend turned crappy
was late
parents FREAKEDD
dads bday thing was shit
i was tired as
and its my dads weekend D:
i was bored so i slept to pass time

this morning i got up played nintendo
had a fight with the step mother
made my dad have a breakdown
yea im now sitting waiting in my room
until 630 tonight when i get to go home ;DDDD

and hopefully go out
although i literally have a couple of dollars,
hopefully enough for two bus trips haha

dear blog and co.
i have a fucked up voice along with a cough, sore throat
and not being able to breathe properly.

at this point in time im not sure
if its just your average cold or if its from something
else (which doesnt need to be shared ;D)
or maybe a mixture of both who knows.
time shall tell.

anyway its shit, its annoying me
and not only that i have to go to work like this and coach
people tennis and i really cant be fucked i feel like shit
and dont want to have to run around plus my job isnt
very fun its actually rather gay.

i want a new one!

anyway someone fix me i feel crappy!! D:
this thing better be gone friday because i dont want
to have to go to the fringe with it however nor
do i want to miss the opening night.

highs and lows, fast yet slow

so today,
i started my tafe course it was a good day all in all
i had to be there at 9 and had a 4hour lesson, which he just talked and talked and
talked and gahhhh o.O
and then i had another 4hour lesson in which all i did was
cut out letters from a magazine and write stuff with them haha

tonights to do list;
- go to dads
-make food to take to tafe tomorrow
-organise my shit for tomorrow
-burn a cd for the car
tomorrows to do list;
- check bank
- pick up hannah, take her to school
- go to tafe
- go to chiropractor (and possibly doctor)
- go to work


on a completely random note...
im sick of people assuming everything about me
- yes i have pericings but im not an emo or freak
- yes i have bleach blonde hair no im not a slut
- yes i wear make up, wear fashionable clothes and have "barbie" hair
BUT im not dumb, i can actually hold an intelligent conversation fuck -_-

two wrongs should make a right

My mother today said to me "Thera-Jade, you remind of effy hun. you've been hurt over and over (most of which relates to me, sorry). but now because of that, you end up fucking with everyone else's feelings and life. please, i know its hard but please open up, the pain would be less for you and everyone else. dont act like you havent been hurt, or that you dont care. Just wake up and stop making the wrong decisions."

that really hit home, im sorry.

i'm well aware that life isnt easy.
i'm well aware its not meant to be easy.
i'm well aware you have to make decisions.
i'm well aware that people will make different decision.

i'm not at all aware of that decision i should make...

so, today was the my orientation for my tafe course
i came home more afraid than excited. i'm worried what if this isn't the perfect decision
i'm also worried because i'm forcing myself to have to grow up earlier than others.
is it wrong or is it right.
i guess it doesnt matter ive made my decision.


because of this decision,
and the feeling i need to grow up at a faster rate, i dont know what i should be doing.
on one hand, at the moment, i love my life, im happy!
however its not growing up its doing the opposite.
going out, wondering around, being carefree, gets smashed
sure they are all things in which teenagers do, right

im a teenager but im not living the life of an average one
does this in turn mean, i need to give all this up?
please someone enlighten me! tell me im wrong
tell me to continue, you're fine, be happy!

bottom line
why am i even bothering worry about it....
honestly there is no way to know if i make the right or wrong decision until
ive already made it.

crossed paths

why didnt i just do it?!
i clearly wanted to
i had no reason not to
but nooooo i had to go and not do it because i thought that was
mean to him, considering he was pissy for something that never happened
fuck that! this is bullshit. fuck double standards
im sick of people talking about as if im the villian in everything
so,
therefore ive decided
"fuck it" im going to do what makes me happy

but seriously,
hahaa what was i thinking :S
and
dammm as if i didnt, gosh! i wanted to haha




on a lighter note
i found this amazing song
its really sweet and things unfortunately i
cant download it
oh welll ^^,

the blog world...

soo,
i thought id make a blog page
not because im seeking attention but because i can share shit easier
on here than with people. i want to use my blog page to escape from reality.


im really happy that this year i shall be attenting my graphic design course
and not school.
not only is it what i want to do with my life but also a new start
something ive wanted aswell :).


Lately, (as in since the beginning of this year)
my life has completely changed, im not sure if im just growing up
or fucking up. time shall tell.